Monday Coffee

Hot, sweet and tasty, wrapped up in a pretty mug, just waiting for you.  Come, join me.

Relaxing is the name of the game this week. I’ve managed to catch up with a few bloggers this week, namely Trent (who fell off a cliff and survived to tell the tale – and had a busy week last week!), Sarina (who has a lovely new baby to keep her busy) and Teagan ( who has something wonderful for you if  you take a look at her account). Hugh’s book is now ready to order from amazon and I have to say, some of the stories in there will make your hair curl.  I love it!

Grab a chocolate and let me tell you about my day.  Long story short: I relaxed. Yes, hard to believe (especially for my children who think I’m a robot sent to make their lives a living hell because I don’t sit down) – I chilled out today.  First the movies, then a little fun walking around the High street looking at the latest books (I call that fun, okay) and then, out of nowhere, the drop. I stopped at a local bookshop and as I trawled through the spectacular titles, I thought to myself – why are my books not here? Such a silly thought. Such a trivial little detail, but as the seconds passed, that thought grew into this big ugly thing.

It hit me. The reality of being an independent writer with the tripe of trying to cover the marketing of my own books and hoping, yes hoping, that one of my readers would actually follow through with a book review. I’m not good enough.  I couldn’t shake the feeling, a deep, resonant pain in my gut that ate away at the little self confidence I possess as a writer and screamed “FAILURE!”

The final cut was finding a book with a similar title to mine with a catchphrase on the front cover that described my book perfectly. So, this book was good enough to add to their collection but mine, apparently is not! I’m pretty ugly when I’m jealous.

You might as well pick your jaw up off the floor and drink your coffee. There’s nothing else to add to my day. Dinner was great.  I’m still unread, unloved and a failure in the literary world.  Oh, my the hubble tried to make me feel better. He told me that Vincent Van Gogh also waited for some sort of acknowledgement and it came – after he died. Thanks, Hubble!

I think I might swop out the coffee for Chardonnay.  All in all it was a nice day. How was yours?


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8 responses to “Monday Coffee

  1. Oh Mello… I’m so sorry you felt that way. Believe me, I know too well what it is like to truly have failed, and how demoralizing it is. (I’ve been trying for five long years to get a job in another state so I could relocate — all after a jealous manager set about dismantling my career. I won’t go into the things these people have cost me. For five years I have failed to improve my situation. I would not wish this feeling of failure on anyone.
    I don’t discount your feelings at all, but I do not see you as any sort of failure. Perhaps a new definition of success is in order.
    To laugh often and much;

    To win the respect of intelligent people
    and the affection of children;

    To earn the appreciation of honest critics
    and endure the betrayal of false friends;

    To appreciate beauty;
    To find the best in others;

    To leave the world a bit better, whether by
    a healthy child, a garden patch
    or a redeemed social condition;

    To know even one life has breathed
    easier because you have lived;

    This is to have succeeded.

    Ralph Waldo Emerson

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  2. My days are much the same – after the initial flurry sales seize up. Never mind the second book has just come out – time for another initial flurry. Roll up, roll up – great new kids book…

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  3. Oh, Eloise. I’m so sorry you felt like that. As you know, I’ve only just entered the publishing world (and thank you for mentioning it in your post). I’ve been warned of the bumps and trips and traps along the way but, whatever happens, I’m going to carry on with my writing. We can all but try but I’ve also been told that together, authors can be powerful. I know that sounds like something from Harry Potter, but know that I’ll support you any which way I can. Perhaps a guest post over on my blog about all your books to get things underway?

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    • Thank you so much Hugh. I’d appreciate that and I appreciate all the support you’ve given me in the past. I think it was s moment of weakness: entering the perfect little bookshop with all these fantastic books and a little voice crept up to the loudspeaker in my head and said, “Where’s yours?” I’ve shaken it off but trust me, that little voice keeps coming back!

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